Saturday, June 15, 2013
It is 8:05 am, and I have just sat down in the Harold B. Lee Library on campus. Its 8 AM!! On a SATURDAY!
But I had quite an interesting moment as I walked to the library doors just now.
I knew I needed all the time I could get in the library this morning, so I planned to get her just as the building opened. I timed my walk perfectly. For long stretches of time, I was the only person walking around campus this morning.
The sun has just barely risen above the mountains, and the light is about as magical as it comes. I was 15 steps from the front door, and the BYU bell tower started to chime. If you are not familiar with the bell tower, on the hour it plays the first few lines from Come, Come Ye Saints. I chuckled to myself as I opened the door and sang along in my head. It was as if the Library were calling to me:
"Come, come ye saints! No toil nor labor fear. But with joy, wend your way!"
Now isn't that fitting as I try to conquer the last of my assignments?
Friday, June 14, 2013
Last night I was reading a church related book before bed...and I realized I had been so busy for the last two months, I had really never given myself the time to ponder. I would push and work and trudge forward, doing the things Heavenly Father had told me to do.
I made time for the temple. I read my scriptures daily. I did my visiting teaching. I did the THINGS. But I did not give myself the time to ponder and think.
"Heavenly Father, I have tried to do all that you have asked. But I have starved myself in a way. I feel like I get little sips of the spirit every morning during scripture study, but I never feel that thirst quenched. I feel slightly hollow...even though I am doing all the right things. I promise, as soon as I get this last research paper and final done, I will take the time to slow down. I promise. I just need you to help me push through now. Help me to power through. Help me to get the sleep I need to stay focused and get my paper done today...."
I went to bed, ready to be proactive with my next day. I will get up at 6am...I will go to the library before work. I will not waste His time and resources He is providing me with. I will show Him I am thankful for His help.
I woke up at 8:30.
What have I done?!?! I wasted what he gave me!
Well....I can't do all of those wonderful things now. I will study some more today. Not only will I read my scriptures, but hey! I will read a conference talk too! I can't make up for the lost time, but I can do something good with it.
He was giving me time.
He gave me time to be alone at home, to have silence. To have time to ponder. Time to pray. Time to reflect. Time to give my burdens over. Time to feel love.
Time to feel the thirst quenched.
He gave me time, by taking it away.
Monday, June 3, 2013
Future Hermana Sydney Lyman is my dearest friend in Blanding, Utah. She was Sister Maynez and my best friend. She is going to serve a mission in Washington, Spanish Speaking in October. She posted the most beautiful thing on her blog, and I just have to show you...
Good Bye Sister Maynez
Good Bye Sister Maynez